Over the last year and a half my life largely consisted of working full time and going to school full time so my hobbies all fell by the wayside.  Now that I find myself a new mother without her child this void is greater than I ever could have imagined.  In an effort to keep myself sane and not overdo it physically, since I did just give birth 12 days ago, we have spent much of the last two days in our garden.

There is something therapeutic about being outside and touching living things. I am hoping that my greenish brown thumb becomes more of a solid green thumb with time and attention over the summer. I am looking forward to having something to focus on and cultivate.  We planted many vegetables and herbs as well as some flowers.  We are calling it our Logan Garden.

Today we went back to the funeral home to drop off what we want to have cremated with Logan. Yet more difficult decisions we needed to make that we had never in our wildest nightmares ever considered. We decided on:

  • The “Daddy” shirt and “Daddy’s lil Storm Pooper” onesie that I purchased after the first positive pregnancy test as my cute way of telling Brian we were going to be parents
  • The first book we bought for Logan “Guess How Much I Love You”
  • Pictures of us as a family and Logan’s fur brothers Buggy and Larry as well as a picture of the picture Brian drew when he found out we were going to have a baby
  • Finally, a metal heart that my mother gave me many years ago. I plan to have it returned to me and then turned into a necklace

for logi

Good things that happened today:

  • We discovered a new slideshow feature on our computer that put Logan’s pictures to music… it was beautiful 🙂
  • I had morning coffee with my mom on our porch today
  • Our garden is looking fabulous
  • I got this blog up and running